The seasonal depression hit, cold weather makes cold spirits
And what good is expressing yourself when these folks don’t want to hear it?
Praying for a breakthrough, but fuck it, I got to make it happen
No fairy tales, just hard work because real shit doesn’t come from Magic
Can’t be throwing lobs to everyone because I ain’t Bron or Magic.
These niggas think they earned their stripes, but they don’t deserve the badges
But they say I’m too dramatic. But when I share the shit you’re not welcoming
That’s why I’m married to the game and no one will receive a wedding ring
I can’t be forced to settle. I can’t be forced to accept less
You say what I want isn’t realistic and I tell you just to be blessed
God’s probably ashamed I feel stressed, like son look at what I’ve done for you
And I’m like “God I hear you, but I need more to feel comfortable”
I don’t like being vulnerable. So, intimacy is a stretch for me
I sat down, I put in the work and these niggas still ask requests of me
I told these fools that I’m tired of giving you the best of me
Then sitting down and figuring out how to make do with what’s left of me
I feel like someone’s testing me. Trying to see if I change the recipe
If there’s a secret ingredient, I say nope just me
There’s people in my life that probably hate when I get this way
But I spent my life grinding now I’m just trying to blow up, no Tim McVay
I want my rings and medals like the Olympic logo on full display
So no fool can say that in the book on the history of life, I don’t get a page.
I want to be so impactful that when I die, the whole world stops
Not on some superficial shit, I just want my work to live on, when I’m not
Been getting body blows left and right and Bobbie dying feels like a spine shot
Feels like the whole neighborhood watching but this ain’t a crime watch
I want movie plots over burial plots. I want us to go the better route
I want us to plan better. More life insurance and less gofundme accounts
And that’s not a shot at no one, because we do what we can when times get hard.
I just don’t want to be one missed car note from losing my house and my job
I don’t want to live paycheck to paycheck, I want something bigger.
Yeah the fairy tales are cool and all but me and mine need something realer.