Those who know me know I have a lot on my mind.
Broke a million watches hoping it’s the perfect time.
Feeling attacked on all sides, if you’re down, let’s ride
All these demons swarming, attacking like a beehive
Let’s be clear, you don’t know me. You know what I allow you to
Ain’t here for a slick mouth, how we both gonna have attitudes?
I been doubted since December all the way in 1991
I hide these scars from the masses because the war isn’t won
I’m fighting this shit every day, suffered in every way
And I ain’t planning on making up with y’all, this ain’t Mary Kay
People get diabolical when the time’s right.
Every time I wake up, I walk into another prize fight
The devil throwing right hooks, and left jabs
Jesus take the wheel, otherwise I might crash
And how dare I die before I get what I deserve?
I’m waiting on that day like it’s the 1st and the 3rd
They aren’t ready for the appraisals, they don’t want you to know your worth
Young black, and gifted but how dare I show hurt?
How dare I show weaknesses and still consider myself a king?
Show a little bit of pain and they just turn it into memes
I haven’t been getting much sleep lately, I don’t like what’s in my dreams
Worried about my standing, should I be on to better things?
When I tell you I been told I’m not shit at least once a day
People keep taking shots at me, even my friends have caught a stray
But God believes in me too much to allow me to walk away
So I’m cooking up something like I learned from Bobby Flay
We’re in the era where other people try and dictate your value
Don’t give them the full story, they’ll create one without you
I keep a lot of things to myself on purpose.
Share what you went through and the aura becomes worthless
I can be anything I want to be except perfect…
Hopefully someone sees that and still thinks I’m worth it…